Friday, May 2, 2008

Deep Thoughts...

I am new to the blogging world and I hate to start off my experience on such a serious note. But today is a day of sadness and despair in our home. Last night, we had to have our beloved family pet of 9 years, Nestle, put to sleep. A very hard decision for a family full of animal lovers but one that had to be made. She was a very sick dog and it wasn't fair of us to make her suffer anymore than she needed to just for our own selfish reasons. So the choice was made. Which quite honestly, breaks my heart!!

I know to some it is just a animal, but to us, Nestle is (was) a HUGE part of this family!

Which began the "snowball" of my deep thoughts today. You see, not even 3 months ago my husbands Mother passed away suddenly of a Brain Aneurysm. We were (still are) all VERY devastated!! Not only did my husband lose his Mother and my children lost their Grandma. I lost a very good friend, a confidant....a Mother! There is a empty space in my heart that will never be the same.

Not to mention, the loss of my Grandma that we had just experienced about a year ago. My Grandma was more than a Grandma. She was the matriarch of our family. She was the Mother to 10, a Grandmother to 25 , and a Great-Grandmother to 19. And I am sometimes stressed over being a Mother of TWO teenagers!! Gosh, I feel weak! I think that is it, she was my symbol of strength!! A woman of substance....

Unfortunately, we all experience death. Whether it be a parent, a grandparent, a sibling, a child, a dear friend or even a beloved pet. It is the hardest thing in life that we all will have to experience. So to all of you, that have had to ever feel that gut wrenching, knot in your stomach, pain in your chest, lump in throat feelingof deepest sympathy!!